man this day has beyond sucked! i wasn't going to update, but i have nothing else to do. i'm gonna start getting really attached to LJ again. "how i would gladly bet my life upon it." so true. and i love the thrill of getting all these nice comments! i love to see the stupid things that will pop up next! but hopefully those will stop. i'm through talking to Cassady when she can finally let herself go. anywayz... i didn't hear Miss Murder 10 times today. (i only heard it 5! lol!) and there was nothing on tv pretty much the whole day. until dedicate live. that was most interesting - not! interesting is not the word. obnoxious is a better word. anywayz, again! i'm really excited for tomorrow. i need for my sweatshirt to dry. i have some sweatshirts now that my locker is cleaned out! lol! it was more of a closet to me, i suppose. i had chicken noodle soup for lunch today. i was on the phone with lindsey. i started to feel the phone slip as i was taking another bite, and i didn't get up in time to save it. my phone fell right into the bowl. there's something about chicken noodle soup, that's just not lucky. yesterday i was eating it, and i was getting ready to take another bite, and i started to choke. i breathed in, and started choking on air. i couldn't breathe! i managed to choke out to my mom, "i'm dying!" she was on the computer, and was like, "i can hear that." i was crawling into the kitchen to get something to drink, and she sat there, updating on MySpace. how lame is that?! LAME! i've got to stop saying that. but it's a fun word. anywayz(for the third time) i might go. i need to pick out stuff to wear for tomorrow, and pack everything else i need.

i left a very nice comment for Cassady. man, i wish nice was the word for it. but i really don't, cuz i am so PO'd at her right now, it's unbelievable. anywayz, enough about her, and all that drama(she's not worth it). i can't wait tomorrow! cuz i might be going over to Lindsey's house. WOOT! that's exciting. i get to meet fun Waverly people(boys)! WHOO, BOYS! i'm so weird. but i like it that way. i took a shower today, and my hair dried in like two hours! that never happens. 14 days! till june 16th! i'm beyond excited. it's two weeks away, and i'm still rambling on about how awesome it's going to be. but i guess i'll stop now. but i can't! i really hope (someone) is going to be there again. i had so much fun with him last time. i don't care how much of a whore i sound right now! anywayz, i think i'll go now. there's nothing to do. i've been on here 3 times today(this being the third), so...

i woke up at around 8:30. i woke up to "The Kill" (not a complain) i swear i heard "Miss Murder exactly 10 times yesterday! (it was on different channels, but still!) i guess alot of people like it. i've been learning most of the words by hearing it so much! i know the entire 2nd verse, and most of the 1st too (there's a couple words i still can't figure out). yeah, so that's another song that i know (pretty much). and i like that song, and they've been playing "Makedamnsure" on tv like it's new! they didn't even play it this much when it first got released on tv! that's weird. i've been watching more MTV, and MTV2 than usual. i guess because in the mornings they have paid programming on fuse, and they only have Victory TV on there on the weekends! (what a letdown). i think i've heard this somewhere, so i never used it as something. "A beautiful letdown" it sounds like it would be a band, and it sounds familiar, but i can't seem to remember. i thought i made it up for about 5 minutes, and it's good, but it's seems to familiar! someone, help me out!

i am so bored! there's nothing to do except watch tv, and there isn't anything on! i guess i'll just watch the rest of the spelling bee. i'm sad that amber didn't get on tv. :( i can't wait till she gets back though. then we can spend the night at each other's houses like we always do! i've been watching SURS, and there's not that much of good music. they've been playing Cartel alot. they're cool. but i suppose i should keep these things to myself (rolls eyes). i need to get a new sweatshirt. bryanna's party was postponed, but i still need to get a new jacket before it, so... yeah. june 16!!! (i should really shut up about that.) i'm so excited - but it is for a good reason so... WOOT! my stomack sinks just thinking about it! ooh... but i need to go shopping before then. jeez... these past few days i've felt like a whore. i made some shorts out of my pants, and i've been trying to make a skirt. oh well, i don't care, i really don't. tee hee. well, anywyaz, it's 8:00, so i'm gonna go, LAME! (spelling bee) ;)

so amber wasn't on TV. that's a letdown, but she still made it that far so... yeah. and proved to people that there is at least one smart person in pike county. "we're all just a bunch of hicks." lol. Lindsey is coming to waverly tomorrow! WOOT! i haven't seenher in forever, hopefully we'll get to hang out er something. there's nothing to do around the house. i even got so bored, i started to do a puzzle with my mother - that's about an all-time low! lol. there's not much on tv either. i really want to go shopping! i want to go to FYE and get Chiodos' CD. i like them. they're a cool band. and if i get really into them, i'll get some merch at Hot Topic er online... yeah. i kinda want to go back to school, i know it sounds lame, but it's better than sitting here at home with my mother with nothing to do! i'd rather be doing math right now, and that's REALLY bad! i guess i'll find something to paint. i need another good painting to hang on my wall, i already hung up my tunnel painting. (it was that good! WOOT!) Daily Download is on (i hate this show!) and so i'm going to find something else to watch. yeah... (lame)

i'm listening to silverstein right now. i'm so glad for summer, but it still hasn't really set in yet. i can't wait to see The Hills tonight! i'm excited. i was thinking about posting some silverstein songs... i think i will. they are my favorite band! i think i have a new favorite song of their's now. Discovering the Waterfront. i can't wait till june 16th!!! and june 8th, cuz on june 8th, i get the whole house to myself for the entire day! HECK YES! now i'm listening to The Academy Is... (fun). A brand new season! it's summer! lol! yesterday was so fun! i'm still thinking about. maybe me and lindsey will go shopping one of these days. sometime, hopefully this summer. lol. i think i'm going to put in a picture, in honor of FOB, it was in the movie i made, dedicated to them. alright, screw that! i don't know how, and it's really getting on my nerves! i'm bored. i think i'll do something else. i need to take a shower anyway... >:/ yeah...

the last day was so pointless. it was kinda fun though. the graduation was boring, but then it turned out to be okay. i'm sad that i didn't get to give Cassidy a hug before he left but i reminded katie to send him hugs on messenger. after the graduation, it was kind of depressing. i have no idea why, but katie was depressed too so it's not like i was the only one that felt crappy. i can't wait till the next dance. i really want to go to the mall soon and get a jean skirt. that or make my own, cuz for some reason i want one. i can wear it to the next dance! that'd be fun, i guess. gonna watch amber on thursday! at noon! it's excitin'! my teeth hurt so bad! i just got back for the orthodontist a while ago. my teeth hurt so bad, you have no idea! but he did say that they're doing good, so i have nothing to worry about. i think i'm going to go, SURS is coming on in ten minutes, and i wanna do some other stuff before i get off the internet. m'kay. b'bye

i took my shower early today, and i got my hair straightened and stuff so... yeah. i love the way my journal looks now! i'm glad i have a lot more styles available! tomorrow might be hard. i'm not going to cry - or so i will try not to. i know when i get on the bus in the evening it's going to be the hardest. oh well, i'll deal. i think after this i'm going to look at cassady's journal. i haven't in forever, and i love to watch her pic! it's dancing milk, how entertaining is that?! b'bye

third day of the weekend, and tomorrow is the last day of school. HECK YES! summer is here. (officially, cuz today is the official first day of summer) WOOT! i cannot wait until june 8th because i get the entire house to myself that day, so i get to do whatever i want for the whole day! how awesome is that?! i woke up kinda early this morning, but i'm awake right now, so... yeah. i got to try my best not to take any naps today because we have school tomorrow, and i've been staying up really late! i was going to call bryanna last night, but my mom was on the internet, so i just stayed up till a little after midnight, and then i fell asleep watching beavis and butthead. (how terrific) i need to get my pictures from Wal Mart. i got the two cameras developed that i took on the overnighter for LEAD. i wanted to get another camera for tomorrow because it's the last day, but i think my mom has paid enough money for cameras already. (darn) anywayz, i tried to make my journal pretty yesterday, and it took forever, but when i saw it, it looked aweful. they finally have the one that i like available and i made it look aweful, so i'm going to try and change it later today. i love my blurb to death (it's silverstein lyrics, come on) and i can relate to that song somehow. it makes sense. and now i'm going to go so i can make my journal look decent again. lol, b'bye

i had a really fun weekend. hannah came over on friday and we went to the y-dance together. that was the real fun. at first when we got there, it was unbeliveably boring! and then it got fun. we had to leave at 11:30 though. jeez... but it was well worth my time. i had so much fun. even though when we got home, i found out that the guy i was hanging out with, hannah liked. (sure) she always does this, and it's really starting to get on my nerves. yeah, she didn't want to tell me cuz i was having too much fun for her to ruin it. yeah right, like she cares whether i get hurt er not. on saturday, it was kind of a drag. i couldn't get myself to wake up, and hannah stayed longer than i had expected. but when she finaaly went home, i got to sleep. later that night i talked on the phone with cassady and bryanna. i stayed on the phone with bryanna till midnight, and fell asleep on the couch. i slept today too. my mom wanted to go somewhere, but when i asked her where, she instantly said Wal Mart. what a letdown. i was hoping something more like a mall! so i took a shower and rushed myself into finding something to wear, and nothing to wear it to. i so cannot wait until Tuesday. at that 8th grade graduation, i'm helping out, but i know that i'm probably going to cry. i have a friend in 8th grade, and it's not going to be the same not seeing him at school next year. but i will see him on the bus, so it's like i have to go an entire year without seeing him. just three months... :'( and i just have a feeling that i'm never going to see him again. i just gotta tell myself that everything is going to work out. i can't wait till next year. but over the summer is going to be so much fun. this saturday, bryanna is going to have a party at her new house. that's going to be the best! there's going to be a whole bunch of fun people there! and everything is going to be great. i need a new jacket before saturday, though. it's going to be outside the entire time, and i don't have any jackets that fit me right. so that's my mission this week. yay! and i guess i'm going to watch amber at the spelling bee this week. hopefully she'll do good. and now i'm going to go, i didn't intend to make this entry so long, but i have a whole lot to talk about! b'bye!